Breathe.

I am back 

but he has gone 

Now I am waiting for his plane to land, the plane that will deliver him safely to his country

He has gone 

I can hardly believe it 

I feel empty 

Theres nothing left after the tears run dry

Back home again. . . 

Leaving me pining for his precence

There is emptiness in the space by my side

where my darling should be . . .

Where he has been for the last nineteen days 

That felt like forever

and no time at all.

He held me tight and kissed my tears 

Im going to go now, he whisperes softly 

I nod , I know he has to go, but I hold him tighter 

why does it have to be like this 

Even those perfect nineteen days had to end

as he walked away into the crowd with tears streaking his face

I feel what its like to have the person you love the most taken away from you 

I start shaking

my wounds raw and screaming

I want him to turn back 

I want to call out to him 

I want to feel him in my arms one last time 

Kiss him one last time 

I want it so badly I can hardly breathe

But I don't 

Because I can't 

I want to die 

Because my reason to live is leaving me

And there are so many ways that I could die

And I think about them.

But thats all I do 

Because In the midst of the pain and the loss

the heartbreak of his tear-stained beautifull face

I know I have to stay alive 

Because he is coming back to me.

He keeps me breathing.