Darling . . .

Lying in a bed that still smells of you... 

Eating my Darling chocolate and trying so hard not to die of the pain im my chest

Ripping

bursting 

screaming 

pain 

.

I cant breathe 

I cant think 

I just hurt 

There are so many tears I cant even wipe them away 

wish you were here to wipe them away for me

To hold me in your arms 

Make the pain go away with your beautifull smile 

 . . .

                                              but you can't . . . 

                                    because you'r not here . . . 

                                                   you'r so far away  . . .

My Darling

I keep trying to think 

Two months

Just two months 

and then I can kiss you again 

then you can hold me 

but two months just feels like forever . . .

. . . 

I live for you my darling 

                                                            I miss you so much . . . .

come back to me

Chaos Walking

I have just finished reading the 

Chaos Walking Trilogy

It's absolutely amazing...

Serously 

these have to be

The Best Books I Have Ever Read

The knife of never letting go -   Patrick Ness imagines a small town in which women have been banished and only men remain, with Todd being the last boy, about to reach manhood. Due to a virus, everyone can hear each other’s thoughts: ‘Noise’. When Todd discovers a patch of silence he also discovers his first female, Viola, and despite initial mistrust, together they attempt to evade the men who are following Todd. As they flee he discovers much about himself, his family, about friendship and about prejudice

The ask and the Answer -  Fleeing before a relentless army, Todd has carried a desperately wounded Viola the last few feet into Haven...  And right into the hands of their worst enemy, Mayor Prentiss.In exchange for Viola's safety, Todd is forced to work with the Mayor in creating a new society for the settlers to come, one based on bringing an ominous-sounding order to the chaos of New Prentisstown.But what secrets are hiding just outside of town? And where is Viola? Is she even still alive? And who are the mysterious Answer?

"And then, one day, the bombs begin to explode...

Monsters of Men -  Three armies march on New Prentisstown, each one intent on destroying the others.

Todd and Viola are caught in the middle, with no chance of escape.As the battles commence, how can they hope to stop the fighting? How can there be peace when they’re so hopelessly outnumbered? And if war makes monsters of men, what terrible choices await? But then a third voice breaks into the battle, one bent on revenge…