First there were lots and lots of exams, and
then my Darling came
and now hes left.
He left yesterday.
I feel myself spialing again like I always do once the reality that hes gone again sets in my brain and shouts at me
telling me Im not gonna be able to have him in front of me,
Im not gonna be able to touch his face
to kiss his lips
to feel him hold me
his arms wrapped around me..
to hear him whisper to me while he holds around me
Im not gonna see his cute expressions
and hear his sensless random frases
I even miss studying with him....
I wish i could look in to his beautifull eyes now....
He is asleep now. We talked last night and he set his alarm for 10. I did the same but i woke up earlier
Ive been awake for like 2 hours now, or maybe 3
I can never sleep well when he goes....
I wish I could see him sleeping.
It hurts so much to see him walk away....
like something vital inside is dying ....
my head and my chest feels like they are going to explode....
my eyes ache....
Why is is that the best part of my life brings me so much pain...
why cant i be selfish and have him all the time
Its not fair...
I just feel like jumping off a cliff right now.. I hate this feeling. So Much.
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