Tinnitus..

Do You know what its like to have a song going through your mind on a loop so loud it makes you want to bang your head agains the wall untill you pass out just so as not to hear it? No matter how beautifull the song may be.

Ive had the piano instrumental version of "In The End" of Linking Park for the last 3 days getting louder and louder in my head. Ive wached movies, listened to loud music trying to drown it out but the minute the distraction ends its there even louder.
I love the song, but put the song on and crank it up to loudest in yor headset and listen to it over and over and over and over and over.  .  .


I hate it when this happens. My dad sais its probably the Tinnitus that makes this happen. My minds way of changing the sound in my mind that isnt that high pitched whining.
At least im kinda getting used to that noise though seeing as ive had it as long as i remember.
Its either get used to it or go crazy
It gets so unbearable.
But its not always very loud. Sometimes i can go quite a while with it just being low backgrownd noise wich is fine. But some times it flares up and i cant even think.
Mostly its that high pitched whining. But sometimes its songs that get stuck in my head that just increase in volume and i cant seem to stop it.. like this time.
Sometimes its even worse and its screaming, or loud whispers in my ear that i cant understand. That only happens after a particulaly bad nightmare or if i get really bad beacuse of something...

But mostly its just the whining.