IVE PASSED.
This is the first step to an amazing summer
I just got my school results and i have passed EVERYTHING.
Now for step two
Study like Crazy untill the Uni exams
on the 9th , 10th , and 13th of this month
Step three is to pass those exams and to get enough result to be accepted in Uni
And THEN Im off to Norway
MOUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHA
I can do this!
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Representations of some of the things im feeling~
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| Hiding behind a mask.... |
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| So lonely... |
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| Still waiting for you ... come back to me |
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| Plese dont leave me.... |
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| But it hurts so much... |
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| I hate it so much . . . |
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| I wish i could just end this pain. . . |
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| I wish i could disapear and stop feeling for a while |
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| Forever. You Know That. |
I cant wait for the day when I will know that im never gonna be apart from him again.
I keep remembering little things he tells me
He said that being with me, for him, its like being in heaven. Like hes died and gone to heaven.
He said that he never wants to leave me... he cried when he said that...
I have all these beautifull memories.
They are what make me smile when im feeling bad
But also what tear me up inside when im missing him so badly . . .
. . .D
Im sorry I havent posted for a while, I havent had the chance.
First there were lots and lots of exams, and
then my Darling came
and now hes left.
He left yesterday.
I feel myself spialing again like I always do once the reality that hes gone again sets in my brain and shouts at me
telling me Im not gonna be able to have him in front of me,
Im not gonna be able to touch his face
to kiss his lips
to feel him hold me
his arms wrapped around me..
to hear him whisper to me while he holds around me
Im not gonna see his cute expressions
and hear his sensless random frases
I even miss studying with him....
I wish i could look in to his beautifull eyes now....
He is asleep now. We talked last night and he set his alarm for 10. I did the same but i woke up earlier
Ive been awake for like 2 hours now, or maybe 3
I can never sleep well when he goes....
I wish I could see him sleeping.
It hurts so much to see him walk away....
like something vital inside is dying ....
my head and my chest feels like they are going to explode....
my eyes ache....
Why is is that the best part of my life brings me so much pain...
why cant i be selfish and have him all the time
Its not fair...
I just feel like jumping off a cliff right now.. I hate this feeling. So Much.
First there were lots and lots of exams, and
then my Darling came
and now hes left.
He left yesterday.
I feel myself spialing again like I always do once the reality that hes gone again sets in my brain and shouts at me
telling me Im not gonna be able to have him in front of me,
Im not gonna be able to touch his face
to kiss his lips
to feel him hold me
his arms wrapped around me..
to hear him whisper to me while he holds around me
Im not gonna see his cute expressions
and hear his sensless random frases
I even miss studying with him....
I wish i could look in to his beautifull eyes now....
He is asleep now. We talked last night and he set his alarm for 10. I did the same but i woke up earlier
Ive been awake for like 2 hours now, or maybe 3
I can never sleep well when he goes....
I wish I could see him sleeping.
It hurts so much to see him walk away....
like something vital inside is dying ....
my head and my chest feels like they are going to explode....
my eyes ache....
Why is is that the best part of my life brings me so much pain...
why cant i be selfish and have him all the time
Its not fair...
I just feel like jumping off a cliff right now.. I hate this feeling. So Much.
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